Love
I've been blogging a lot less lately. I don't know why.
I just am.
They say spring is the season of love. I disagree though.
Love is meant for any and all seasons.
It is all the seasons at the same time but also different.
It can be beautiful and happy like the spring.
It can be hot like the summer. :P
It can be peaceful and calming like the fall.
It can also be cold and lonesome like the winter.
Falling/Being in love is much like making a stew. It's never always the same every time. Sometimes, everything works out. Sometimes, everything doesn't. However, even when it doesn't, you still have the ingredients to make it better.
I can happily and unhappily say that it's been spring and winter for me lately.
Not just me but a few friends of mine as well.
The stew has been made. It's a bittersweet taste. There's a quote that can describe how I feel every day:
"Do you know what it's like, getting up every morning, feeling hopeless, feeling like the love of your life is waking up with the wrong man but at the same time hoping that she still finds happiness even if its never going to be with you?" - Albert Brenniman, Hitch
That's the position I'm in as of right now, except she isn't with a man nor is she sleeping with anyone.
It's not her fault at all. It was just bad timing on my part. But, hey! I don't mind where I am at all. I have my happy moments and I have my sad moments.
An interesting thing about love is that it makes you bipolar. It makes you feel so very happy one second, by making you think about the person. Then, it makes you sad and it derives that sadness from the happiness, by making you think about the fact that you are not with that person. Sometimes, the happiness overpowers the sadness. Sometimes, it's the other way around.
I like it. The bipolarity shows me alot of encouraging things:
-When I'm happy, it's because of her. She is the candle for when the lights are out.
-When I'm sad, it's because of the fact that I can't be with her. This makes me proud though. It shows to me how much I love her. It's just unbelievable.
The bipolarity is like a never-ending circle:
Happy --> Sad --> Happy --> Sad.....
If you look at it mathematically (you can't blame me :P), that should add up to zero.
However, it doesn't. There's a transition in between Sad --> Happy.
Happy --> Sad --> Proud --> Happy --> Sad --> Proud....
That adds up to alot more happiness than it does sadness.
For that, I don't care if I'm not with her...well I do but...it doesn't hurt as much.
Love is a complicated thing. It is a complicated thing.
A few things to sum this all up:
"In the arithmetic of love, one plus one equals everything, and two minus one equals nothing."
~ Mignon McLaughlin
"I don't know why they call it heartbreak. It feels like every other part of my body is broken too." ~ Missy Altijd
"In every heart there is a room
A sanctuary safe and strong
To heal the wounds from lovers past
Until a new one comes along." ~ Billy Joel
"Sometimes, when one person is missing, the whole world seems depopulated." ~ Lamartine
Kanye West - Heartless
By the way, the lyrics of that song do not describe her at all. She is not heartless. She has a heart of gold. Her heart contains more love than anyone else on this planet. The song is just nice and the overall mood it sets kind of fits you know?
I just am.
They say spring is the season of love. I disagree though.
Love is meant for any and all seasons.
It is all the seasons at the same time but also different.
It can be beautiful and happy like the spring.
It can be hot like the summer. :P
It can be peaceful and calming like the fall.
It can also be cold and lonesome like the winter.
Falling/Being in love is much like making a stew. It's never always the same every time. Sometimes, everything works out. Sometimes, everything doesn't. However, even when it doesn't, you still have the ingredients to make it better.
I can happily and unhappily say that it's been spring and winter for me lately.
Not just me but a few friends of mine as well.
The stew has been made. It's a bittersweet taste. There's a quote that can describe how I feel every day:
"Do you know what it's like, getting up every morning, feeling hopeless, feeling like the love of your life is waking up with the wrong man but at the same time hoping that she still finds happiness even if its never going to be with you?" - Albert Brenniman, Hitch
That's the position I'm in as of right now, except she isn't with a man nor is she sleeping with anyone.
It's not her fault at all. It was just bad timing on my part. But, hey! I don't mind where I am at all. I have my happy moments and I have my sad moments.
An interesting thing about love is that it makes you bipolar. It makes you feel so very happy one second, by making you think about the person. Then, it makes you sad and it derives that sadness from the happiness, by making you think about the fact that you are not with that person. Sometimes, the happiness overpowers the sadness. Sometimes, it's the other way around.
I like it. The bipolarity shows me alot of encouraging things:
-When I'm happy, it's because of her. She is the candle for when the lights are out.
-When I'm sad, it's because of the fact that I can't be with her. This makes me proud though. It shows to me how much I love her. It's just unbelievable.
The bipolarity is like a never-ending circle:
Happy --> Sad --> Happy --> Sad.....
If you look at it mathematically (you can't blame me :P), that should add up to zero.
However, it doesn't. There's a transition in between Sad --> Happy.
Happy --> Sad --> Proud --> Happy --> Sad --> Proud....
That adds up to alot more happiness than it does sadness.
For that, I don't care if I'm not with her...well I do but...it doesn't hurt as much.
Love is a complicated thing. It is a complicated thing.
A few things to sum this all up:
"In the arithmetic of love, one plus one equals everything, and two minus one equals nothing."
~ Mignon McLaughlin
"I don't know why they call it heartbreak. It feels like every other part of my body is broken too." ~ Missy Altijd
"In every heart there is a room
A sanctuary safe and strong
To heal the wounds from lovers past
Until a new one comes along." ~ Billy Joel
"Sometimes, when one person is missing, the whole world seems depopulated." ~ Lamartine
Kanye West - Heartless
By the way, the lyrics of that song do not describe her at all. She is not heartless. She has a heart of gold. Her heart contains more love than anyone else on this planet. The song is just nice and the overall mood it sets kind of fits you know?
its funny how we haven't been talking to each other for such a long time, but it feels like i know you pretty well.
when i read this i was amazed that you could write down exactly how you feel, i mean you tried to and i'm sure you were pretty successful. especially cuz people are like "what is love?" and they never really answer the question and you did, i mean of course its not perfect, but it was close. and it helped me understand the only feeling i've never felt before. this is turning out to be like another one of my infamous diary enteries. its funny, usually i'm very talkative and i have something to say about EVERYTHING, but right now, i feel like i'm speechless. i don't knwo why. usually i talk about how i've been in a similar situation. but the thing is, i havne't. i mean you must be really lucky to be in love. i feel like its really hard to find love...but when you find it's an atomic bomb. its like a bomb of feelings, both good and bad like you said, like a cycle. when you look back at this and wonder if this ever actually happened, it did. harsha you're seem like your madly in love, trust me. in conclusion i'd like to say good luck with her, and everything else :). and i hope htat you have a "happily ever after" or something close to it :)
sincerely,
the girl with almost the same name as yours
(varsha)
we're such emotional wrecks
but that's not entirely true :)